It has been officially a month since I left my joyful world as a kindie teacher in Bangsar.
My life has been changed dramatically ever since.
From being in rush almost every second of the day. Being rush because I practically disorganized. Trying to juggle between roles. Of being clueless and fail to anticipate upcoming to do list of the day.
Yes being in that environment is fun. Educating is fun. The fulfilment is remarkable. I saw 13 children grown under my nose for that short 8 months. Yes. They did. And I can’t help admitting that somehow someway I am responsible to who they are by the end of the school term.
Yet. Being employed, a mother to a toddler, a wife, a daughter can be handful and to mess the list more I decided to go back to school. Having a classroom to manage at a fix time of every weekdays without the benefits of leaves may not be the best option for me.
Of being sick for 3 times in 8 months. Of having a still breastfeeding toddler. I opt for that choice and today, I am thankfully and proudly confess that my employment term has changed.
Being self-employed is a self-learning process. I have to admit my sense of time management has always been off. My paper organizing skill has always been the worse since ever.
I AM WORKING ON IT. I AM. TRUST ME.
On the 1st of December, I took my first step of being self-employed, full time. I vowed to be ahead of time. Be in control of my schedule. And until today, 30 days after. I am nowhere close.
Laugh. Mock me if you must. I deserve that.
The isolation of being self-employed. You don’t have mentors who can be responsible to mistakes that you make. You have no idea of what you’re doing and you don’t have any last years annual reports to refer to.
Besides having partners who helped in your own startup, I learned a lot of many laws and arrangements that I am totally ignorant if not I was thrown into this situation.
A bad thing? Not necessarily.
However, I vowed to have a self-reflection at least every 30 days. Something I missed while I was being employed in previous places. A good practice. During my years as a fellow in Teach for Malaysia, we had that every few months. It taught me a lot. It calmed me down. Helped to see and gave myself a little bit of pat on my back. After all, you need to learn to appreciate yourself, so that you can be positively contagiously inspiring.
1. Start your days early.
My own verdict. Still in progress. Still not early enough.
2. Set goals for the day.
It is very important to work backwards. I should have applied this since day one. Improving on this. My goal is to have my kitchen cleaned by the time I go to bed every night.
3. Partition time of the day.
My weekdays day is for my startup. Evening is strictly for family. Midnight is for my studies.
4. Hangout with positive people. Only. But first, I need to be positive.
5. Reward yourself.
Can be a cup of nice coffee and some homemade oreo cheesecake at the end of the day. Finish a movie when everyone is asleep or just a few pages of a good novel before you sleep.
6. Say I love you.
*tongue in the cheek. Hik.
7. Pace yourself.
Don’t rush. Know yourself. But be true.
1. Being too ambitious.
Ukur baju di badan sendiri. Know your limits. Be real. Be feasible.
2. Going to sleep feeling angry.
Bad for your heart. Bad for your aura. Not good. Very not good.
3. Complaints too much.
Bad energy. Full stop.
4. Letting yourself to be overwhelmed with emotions, workloads and guilt.
My list can be updated from time to time. I am sure everyone has their own that works better. This is my own self-reflection. Something that I am working on. It has been 30 days. Only 30 days. They say new habits need to be repeatedly done at least 2 months.
(Source : http://jamesclear.com/new-habit).
Breath. Let’s don’t break the habit. No. Don’t turn back.
Start with the end of mind.
Happy New Year. May 2015 be better for us. Prayers for everyone. #pray4pantaitimur #pray4malaysia